Diddy’s death wish leaks: Judge left stunned

Rap mogul, Sean “Diddy” Combs, has admitted in a shocking letter to a U.S. judge that he sometimes felt he would be “better off dead” as he awaits sentencing for his crimes.

The once-flamboyant billionaire, now reduced to sharing a windowless cell with 25 inmates, poured out his guilt and regrets in a four-page letter to Judge Arun Subramanian, ahead of Friday’s sentencing.

“I have to admit, my downfall was rooted in my selfishness… there have been days I thought I would be better off dead,” Diddy confessed. “The old me died in jail and a new version of me was reborn. Prison will change you or kill you – I choose to live.”

But prosecutors want him to serve more than 11 years in prison, insisting his wealth enabled his crimes and that a harsh sentence is necessary to deter reoffending. Diddy, however, is pleading for just 14 months, claiming prison has humbled him.

The rapper admitted that the viral footage of him assaulting his ex-lover Cassie Ventura “plays over and over in my head daily,” adding: “I was dead wrong for putting my hands on the woman I loved. I take full responsibility. My domestic violence will always be a heavy burden.”

In a rare moment of brutal honesty, Diddy acknowledged he would never forgive any man who did the same to one of his daughters. “This is why it’s so hard for me to forgive myself,” he wrote.

The Bad Boy Records founder also described “inhumane” conditions in prison: broken washing machines, dirty water, constant fear of stabbings, and no sunlight. “We eat, sleep, use the toilet, take showers, and prepare meals all in the same room,” he lamented.

Beyond jail, he says he has lost it all businesses, career, reputation, even missing his daughters’ graduations and his youngest child learning to walk and talk. “I have failed my children as a father,” he admitted.

Prosecutors are also asking for a $500,000 fine on top of the prison term.